Musings on Sloan

Sorry the last few posts have been a bit scattered...there will always be much to say around Sundays and Thursdays! Woohoo!

While telling us the "big story" on what happened with Kate during church last night the tears came. How sorry we felt for her! Not that we weren't here, not that she had the trouble (which is GOOD training!) but just because we LOVE her and don't want her to have to weather the storms. (But glad for the outcome, of course)

We were talking about why the tears were there. Was it frustration from not being able to calm Kate down? No! It was maternal sorrow! She was telling us how Kate was crying for me and nothing would appease her as she called my name (Mommeeeeeee, Momeeeeee)

Sidebar: Typical me has to qualify: Sloan does not babysit all the time nor do we use her like a babysitter. And yes, she is perfectly capable of handling it and SHOULD handle it as well. It's called training them up people. And she will be a better Mom for it.

ANYHOO, she was saying she was upset because she felt so sorry for Kate and that she could not help her and meet her need. I was so proud of her ability to recognize this and shared with her when I sometimes feel that way too. When we have to drive to Vero and Kate gets upset...and I cannot get her. I get teary eyed because I cannot meet her need at that moment. That is a maternal thing and something no one can get but a Mom.

Sloan is getting one on one training in that because she is old enough to feel maternally for Kate.
Unfortunately, last night, she was was not maternal-in-carnate. Lol

But she learned and I quote: "I finally realized that she was not going to die, I was not going to die and it wouldn't be long before things changed."

That we would all feel that way in the midst of a storm! Smart girl! And Lord willing, soon to be great Mom!

It is a sacrifice for us to separate for a time as we worship not always together as a family, but one that if we allow it, will be well worth it! The fruit is already bursting forth!