New worries...

Nursing K to sleep tonight she seemed like such a baby in my arms. I mean, she is a baby but I never will have HAD such a baby when the NEW baby comes. I know it really is nothing to worry about but no matter the advice I am sure to receive, it still remains that she will be a baby when the baby comes. I am looking forward to spending as much time with her in the next nine months as possible and need to look up and hold onto some scripture for encouragement. Sigh. Every baby so far seemed brand new with the other kids being older. I know it is the Lord's will but I still wonder what it will be like. How will K look at me when I am nursing her/him? Will she wish for me? I hope that there will be enough of me to go around! The love I have for the kids is a bottomless well but physically there is only so much arm room! Thank goodness for the family bed!