Little bit of everything

Went to the first UIP rehearsal last night. UIP stands for United in Praise and is a choral group that consists of members of different churches that get together to sing Praise and Worship. They do a bunch of concerts in November for various goings on and churhes...It was fun but I was exhausted from all day sewing. I am still not sure I will to do it. The leader Scott was a ball of energy and I liked him right away. I love people who ENJOY praising God and it shows. He took a lot of abuse but it was all in fun. There was a lot of bantering going on and general fun and excitement of a group who had just gotten back together after a long break. I am going to listen to the music for the next few days and see...Good music!
A. came over after with delish chocolate scones and we had a good chat. LOVE chatting about all things child birth and discovered she was one of those.
You know, women who have fast deliveries. We were talking about "to epi or not to epi" when I discovered the truth. I imagine with a 19 minute birth an epi doesn't seem necessary. Now, I really am just kidding (mostly) because her labor was longer than that but I imagine Iwill need her a lot if I make it to the end of this pg. I WILL GET MY BIRTH EXPERIENCE IF IT KILLS ME. Lol Now, now, ladies, lest you feel the need to wax "flexibility Stephanie, flexibility", I'm just kidding. BUT, if I want the very few things that I want/need out of this delivery I imagine I will have to force myself to do a few things. Like: I NEED to get home to Kate right away so NO epi. But if I am in hospital, epi is available. I BEGGED for it last time and didn't get it since anesth. was in surgery. So I may need to seriously consider taking the OPTION out of the picture. I've done in three times with no epi with huge kids so I know I can do it, but once you have the epi....you know it's there. I was telling A I wish I just never had it! If I birth out of the hospital, then the option is gone and I'm home, but then no option of epi.
I need to get praying seriously about it.
I guess I just wonder if brithing at home will include me having full confidence in those around me and the situation in general. Does a homebrithing midwife REALLY have good pain management skills? I am not confident...I have time to research though and so we shall see!