Where to start?

How can I express what the last few days have been like? There are no words.

The only one I can come up with that fits is GLORIOUS!!!!

How ironic is that one of my favorite posts will be my mc post?

Why?

Lots of reasons. There are barely a few who most likely know the depth of wanting I had for this child. It is hard for me to even speak of.
But no, this time I did not receive a living breathing child but instead the living breathing Word of God.

I will forever look back at these scriptures and marvel again and again at how powerful the Word of God was to me at this time. I do not believe that you can ever know unless in the midst of extreme pain, you experience that power. I cannot express it. There is no way to try. I stood in the midst of surely just a glimpse of His Glory and was bowled over.

I was reminded that:

I will be able to comfort others with the same comfort I myself have received.

That His Word is comfort in my affliction and His Word gives me life.

That I am to wait in hope for the Lord, he's my strength and my shield!

That I, a hand maiden of God will again dance and be glad. My mourning has already been turned into gladness!

That God will enlighten my darkness and that I can run against a troop, and by my God I can leap over a wall!

That His plans are to prosper me and not harm me, and He plans to give me hope and a future!

That I shall Hope in God; and yet shall I praise Him!

and of course, The LORD gives, and the LORD takes away.

Lastly, we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

I wrote a friend in an email ..."that it struck me so. It really made me see in the midst of this pain that even THIS is not about ME but is about HIM!!! The bigger picture, you know? I am SO GLAD just to BE a Christian, flaws and all! I love that he can take someone's pain and make it glorify Him. It turned my thinking around to Him and what He could accomplish from this and away from me and an admittedly broken heart.
Amazing God we serve!

I have seen much good from this already. Thank you all for being willing servants of the Lord!
I am so grateful for the body of Christ!!! And this is my heartfelt prayer for each of you:
That your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God. Phil. 1:9-11
I love you! AMEN