Monday, September 29, 2008

Getting Started

We have made some real strides in the house and with school and am anxious to continue! We have busy schedules starting now with two count them TWO different classes for the kids.

Pottery paiting on Mondays for the three (I keep Kate and am looking forward to this beginning of the week three hours to plan, schedule and spend with little bit.)

Clay building on Thursdays for Rachel.

Sloan has tennis 4x a week now and then of course all our at home studies and chores.

Plus we all want to go to the Y at LEAST 3 (preferably 4) times per week.

So...wish us luck with that. Lol

Sunday, September 28, 2008

A GOOD reason we skipped church...








Well off we went...knowing we weren't going to stay...we had planned on practically a date morning at CHURCH when it hit me. I wonder if Fireproof is playing here?
It was and so after a brief stop off at church, off we went to the morning viewing.
There is nothing I can say about this movie but RUN, don't walk to see it. Soooo good. I think we will teach a couples class (our second) using something along these lines. We are SO blessed to have a blessed marriage and want others to too!


Here's what we left on their blog:
My husband and I just got home from watching “Fireproof” and all we can say is WOW. We kept thinking…HOW many lives and marriages could be potentially saved if this movie gets the national acclaim it deserves? Producing faith based movies has been near impossible to do until now…with companies like the ones associated with this movie and many other ministries dedicated to changing the old Hollywood standard, big strides are being made. EVERYONE go see this movie. Tell your friends. Email it to your entire list of contacts. Thank you to all involved in making this movie. Thank you to our Lord Jesus Christ who in His timing, is making His presence known through the medium of film making. Fireproof your marriage and your life by taking a moment to surrender to the one who created you!
CONGRATULATIONS!! The film is victorious in its mission!
We are releasing an endorsement in our family magazine!
-Jeff and Steph Clunn, Lake Family Magazine

Musings on 40...

60 Minutes Correspondent Andy Rooney (CBS)

As I grow in age, I value women over 40 most of all. Here are just a few
reasons why:

A woman over 40 will never wake you in the middle of the night and ask,
'What are you thinking?' She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 40
doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She
does something she wants to do, and it's usually more interesting. Women
over 40 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the
opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve
it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with
it. Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what
it's like to be unappreciated. Women get psychic as they age. You never have
to confess your sins to a woman over 40. Once you get past a wrinkle or two,
a woman over 40 is far sexier than her younger counterpart. Older women are
forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a jerk if you
are acting like one. You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with
her! Yes, we praise women over 40 for a multitude of reasons.
Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed,
hot woman over 40, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a
fool of himself with some 22-year old waitress. Ladies, I apologize...

Compliments of Amy Wallace

40 Faves goes home!

I think Lisa got the better end of this basket!! :) Congrats again and thanks for making my 40th birthday complete by being my family of brothers and sisters in Christ! Love to all of my blogging buds!

A Checklist For Parents: Protection

Did I protect my child, physically, mentally, and spiritually, or did I carelessly expose him to wrong, temptation, or danger?

None of us actually PURPOSELY try to expose our children to wrong, temptation or danger. But we do. And we do it carelessly.

I've always disliked the saying "When you know better, you should do better."

What a load. We DO know better already. As Christians, there is not much room for not knowing that we should not do what we do.

Whether it's letting them watch that show or giving in to their wishes because it is easier. Setting a wrong example in the myriad of ways that we do, it is easy to lead our children astray and never even think a thing of it.
With a word, a look, our body language but mostly...

our actions.

It makes for some tortuous thoughts of trying to be all that we should.
But we will fail. It's built in. And that's not the problem.

The question is whether we still do it when we KNOW we shouldn't?
Do we still expose them to temptations of worldly thoughts and actions?
Do we let them go to soon or to too much, risking their virtue and putting them in danger in any number of ways?
Risking temptation? Leaving them unprotected?
Do we allow them to be disrespectful to us or to others and full of themselves risking their future spousal relationships?

Do we turn our head away letting them do what we know they should not?

Do we sin ourselves, carelessly, RIGHT in front of them???? KNOWING all the while what we are doing?

I'm tired of the excuses that I keep hearing from others.
And I am tired of the excuses that I keep telling myself.

We DO KNOW better. I know better.

So let's call not DOING BETTER (in other words, what is RIGHT) what is is...sin.

I need to do better!

We all make our own beds so their should really be no surprises later.

For those who have ears, let them hear.

"In the fear of the Lord one has strong confidence, and his children will have a refuge." Proverbs 14:26

"But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in hte depths of the sea." Mathew 18:6

New Space in the Kitchen

We made good use of the extra space. This table used to be in the back of the kitchen as you remember and ONE BIG JUNK STOP.
HOPEFULLY it will remain a TABLE here, where the old fridge used to be. We'll see...



Saturday, September 27, 2008

WINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TOO funny! Jeff drew the name himself and the winner is....


DOUG!!!!!!!!

Congrats! I will give basket to Lisa on Sunday...LOL

The Birthday Contest is CLOSED.

And the entries are...

Cheryl
Lisa T.
AnnMarie
Lori
Marissa
Tiffany
Amy
Doug
Leisa

And the winner is.....

(sorry, I have to wait for someone to get up to witness the draw)

Thanks for all the wonderful wishes. Winner announced presently...

Friday, September 26, 2008

What a Party!

I'm BEAT! My mom had a whole lunch open ticket waiting for us at the Oakwood (Bar NONE the best ribs around btw) so we ate out there. Home for Rachel's homemade peanut butter cake and Twix icecream (diet starts next week evidently) and of course, presents!




The Girls and I!

Did they HAVE to put 40 candles on that cake?!?

BLOW!

We had to re-light some again for more blows from Kate.

She really loved helping cut!

Ribs, ribs and more ribs.

Drunk on ribs.

Rach got me an IPOD to work out at the Y with! Can you believe that???

A little chocolate...

A Great Big God...

Hugs for a WORKING Mom???

Loved my new briefcase. I can't believe I need a briefcase!

Editor-in-waiting food.

Lauren crafted this rose out of clay with NO help.

Artistic talent did not skip her!

Daddy comes through with a laptop!

I'm SOOO spoiled! ;)

But he can't resist the joke...

Note the: "Lucky Me" at the bottom.
He is soooooo spoiled too! ;)
C'mere Daddy-O!

My new BFF!!! (Big Fat Fridge!)



Present Time!

This beautiful bouquet is from my Mom! I came home from Sloan's tennis and here they were! Aren't they gorgeous?? My first BIG present is here...gotta go! I knew about this one and can't wait to post it so you can see! Every Mom's dream!



Glad to be Forty!

Yeah, yeah I'm FORTY. I don't know how this started but I started wanting to give gifts on my birthday sometime ago and the kids are normally the recepient of that tradition and no doubt, will be again this year. But this is a SPECIAL birthday so Happy Birthday Blog Readers. Find a list of 40 of my favortie things. All who leave me a birthday message on the comment section will be entered into a drawing for
"Forty of My Favortie Things!

1. Sharpie
2. Candle
3. Basil Pesto
4. Tomato Basil Pesto
5. Mc'D's Iced Coffee
6. Beanie Baby Bear
7. Coffee Mug
8. WalMart Sam's Soda (diet)
9. Sam's Sparkling Water
10. Magic Eraser
11. The Prayer of Jabez
12. Bible
13. Blank Notebook
14. Vitamin Water
15. Empty jar (yes, I LOVE empty jars to put little things in)
16. Hand Sanitizer
17. Clippy
18. Scrunchie
19. Orbit Gum
20. Red Licorice (Fondly called Editor's Food around this joint)
21. Highlighter
22. Lottery Ticket (well, wouldn't THAT be something)
23. Mini Pumpkins
24. Cinnamon Pine Cone
25. Stickers
26. Swarovski Crystal Bracelet
27. Handmade Cards
28. THe "Gift" for all People
29. Chocolate
30. Gift Basket
31. Post-Its
32. Issue 1 (our first issue)
33. Issue 2
33. Issue 3
34. Issue 4
35. Issue 5
36. Issue 6
37. Issue 7
38. Issue 8
39. New Issue October!
40. Scones

Thursday, September 25, 2008

M.I.A.

Sorry guys...I know I am M.I.A. but every time I have a moment I tune in to YOUR blogs!! I have had SOOOO many posts but haven't had the chance to write them.
Will update a bunch of thoughts soon...so CARB up!!!!

Monday, September 22, 2008

My Dad made a good point...

Talking with my ailing father....in never fails that we end up in a discussion of politics or religion. Ha!

But he pointed out that if anything ever happened to McCain, that we would have a female President AND a female VICE president! (Speaker of the House: Nancy Pelosi)

WOW!

Talk about historical...

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Mission Accomplished

I found her.

It was her.

We talked today.

It has been an unbelievable day.

Lots more later.

Too overwhelmed to type or express.

Just. Amazing.

The Mission:

To find my best friend Karen from when I lived in California. 27 years ago! I have been searching for her for about 4 years and just this morning possibly found her after following clue after clue. This is a picture I found of her. I couldn't swear it is her. But those eyes and smile give her away I think. I sent her a message...cross your fingers! I LOVED this girl! We had the best time and were soooo close.


Saturday, September 20, 2008

Can you say B-R-I-A-N?

Bri Bri the layout guy, just singlehandedly saved my gluteal area by lovingly and painstakingly helping cut, and move around pieces in the magazine. We had to lose a few departments but really, this is a good thing in that it shows major growth. It is such a learning process...more ads plus more content equals more pages.

Who knew it would also equal THOUSANDS more dollars in printing costs! Hence, the cut...a month or two more will likely bump us up to 40 pages. FORTY pages. A REAL magazine. WOW.

Anyway, he is the type to remain calm in a crisis and had me laughing myself silly talking like a pirate when explaining to me how he would fix this problem of cutting 4 pages.

He had already laid out most of the magazine but was there a hint of irritation in his voice? No.....just a calm countenance in the face of a challenge and a near panicky editor.

I REALLY like this guy people. Of course, his working for a multi-million dollar magazine brought him all the experience needed for our little lovely so little things like this while HUGE for me, rolled right off his back as if it were nada.

He is the ultimate fit for the magazine and we were blessed to have him. Shout out to Bri people please and thank him for helping me have one less crazy day.

Bri- I love ya man!

On the teasing thing..

It was just that I have this friend from my other world (magazine world)
she is sweet as all get out but has ZERO measure of appropriateness in how she teases.

She hits hard and often and with zero mal intent. But it leaves you feeling winded and tired of having to constantly be on guard.

She hits low and hard and her aim is true but honestly, she does not mean a word of it. It took me a long time to figure out that this is just how she was but it got me thinking about teasing...

how you shouldn't do it

how you shouldn't take offense to it and

how it can make a lasting impression.

She loves me dearly I know, but the teasing has actually separated us a bit. It is like constantly having to be "on" deflecting comments and cleverly discoursing...

a real friend does not use their words to hurt...

so while I am a teaser myself, I don't tease from a mean place and always am trying to make others LAUGH as opposed to making them feel less than.

That's all me was sayin' guys.

If BOTH parties aren't laughing, then the teasing is wrong.
We should constantly be lifting up, encouraging with strong words of faith and excitement for others. Especially our kids who are easy to tease aren't they?
But exasperating them is a SIN so unless they're laughing....and even sometimes then.

This is when I took notice of my being tired of it...when I found myself purposely laughing when I didn't think it was funny at all. Yes, I have told her to stop. It just confuses her because she doesn't get what she is doing.

It is like her gage for proper behavior is broken. Bizarre. This is not reflecting well on her child either...sad.

Regardless brethren, it was not THEE!!!

'Nuf said?

The Humiliation is Complete.

Well, huge crisis yesterday... we had a magazine overload and ended up after the magazine was nearly to print, having to cut FOUR PAGES.

Now by the time the magazine is to this point, having to cut at all is hard but having to cut four pages is like choosing which child you will sacrifice.

So needless to say, it was PIZZA for the kids and off I go to Anthony's to pick it up. (This place is right next to Maryland's on 441)

The catch? I go in my PAJAMAS and just let Rach run in. So while she is in there I see someone hugging her and I think, OH NO.

Yep, out they come to see ME, in all my glory...in my...nappy nap.

It was only Bonnie but still...you get the picture. NOT my fave way to be seen.

I roll back home and pull in where Sloan is standing and tell her, "Well, the humiliation is complete." After relaying the story, she waves me off with her hand.

Bonnie? Pshaw. I thought you were going to say Pastor Bailey! (My pastor from RBC before I started to attend CC) So then she starts naming off people I REALLY would have been humiliated by them seeing me in my bright orange pajamas.

Dr. Moxley...(our new superintendent)
Dr. J Buehler...(VERY handsome chiropractor in town)
Pastor Doug...(who I am sure wouldn't judge me and would likely think it hilarious)

and then she says, How about the Guy from HOUSE???
(actor Hugh Lorie, whom I LOVE)

Alright I concede, I guess Bonnie was the best choice if I had to choose.

Perspective is everything, yes?

Friday, September 19, 2008

SORRY!

You goofs! I LOVE the lot of you and NONE of that was about you all! You BETTER not stop teasing me! I LOVE it! I guess I was thinking out loud about a different situation which I will totally blog about later to eliminate any doubt.

I love all your comments and love to laugh aloud with you and at myself.

I am talking about MEAN teasing...and how ridiculously worked up we can get as women! Especially me!

But I have to go for now....Guess who's here??? Dear M!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For those of you who don't know her she is Michelle M. Carolyn's (from church)daughter!!

Hooray for homebaked bread, sewing, getting pregnant (yep, she got me pg once) and all things homey and homeschool!

Stealing a piece of my old life back.

TEASE away!!!!!!!!!! It wasn't You guys!!!!!!!!!

No Teasing Allowed

Ugh. Stress. I am just beginning to realize how SENSITIVE I am. It is easy to offend me if you are my friend and you pick on me.

I always tell the kids "It's only funny if BOTH parties think it's funny."

Teasing is generally NOT nice. But then, the all time best poster in the world (The Brother-Offended Checklist by Doorposts) says:

Do not be easily Provoked. Your attitude should be that of Christ Jesus. Phil 2:5

Do you ever find yourself being admonished by scripture and going "Yeah, yeah, I know I know."

NOT very Godly I'd say....lol

Ok, so STOP teasing your kids, your husband, the dog and ME!

The Best Breakfast in the Whole Wide World!




Well, maybe not the BEST breakfast, but pretty yummy all the same.

Whole Wheat waffles, smeared with chunky natural peanut butter, sugar free syrup and a big slathering of Cool Whip! Sandwich style! Oh yeah!

Kid happy. Mom approved.At least once in awhile. ;)

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Speaking of Zombie...

Come on now, it IS funny!! And if the person who sent it to me wants to fess up, then so be it.

Zombie Apocalypse 52%

Taken from Tree Climber's Blog but since no one will tell me how to hyper-link (is that what it is called?) I can't directly link there for you.
BTW Lori- I cannot BELIEVE I took the time to do this.

52%


Lori- This is ALSO for you...evidently you are not the only one to go to the Star Wars thing! This is my friend and layout guy (Brian's)son who had a little interface with R2.

And We Have a Winner!

Our own Fearless Leader has WON the Movie Contest with all correct answers. She has won a fabulous facial from Donna Lee Esthetician, of Healthy Alternatives in downtown Mount Dora. CONGRATULATIONS AMY!!!

The winning answers in order are:

1. "Nine Lives, Baby." Ice Age
2. "What do you mean you don't eat meat? That's ok, I'll make lamb." My Big Fat Greek Wedding
3. "Who ARE you?" "No one of consequence" The Princess Bride
4. "You ain't never had a friend like me." Aladdin
5. "You killed my Father." The Empire Strikes Back
6. "When are you coming Cherie?" Greencard
7. "You might break your royal neck and then where would we be?" Ever After
8. "That's not a knife, THAT'S a knife!" Crocodile Dundee, although I am fairly certain it’s “That’s not a knife. This is a knife.”
9. "I'm smart; you're dumb. I'm big; you're small. I'm right, you're wrong. And there's nothing you can do about it." Matilda
10."Can I borrow your underpants for ten minutes?" Sixteen Candles
11. "I'm not bad, I'm just drawn that way." Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
12. "There's no crying in baseball!" A League of Their Own
13. "Carpe diem. Seize the day, boys. Make your lives extraordinary." Dead Poet Society

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

You Chickens!

I cannot BELIEVE you guys did not play the contest....I am not going to give you the good contests this season with homemade fudge, cookies and scones if you do not get this one. Heck, I did not say you couldn't use the computer. It is supposed to be FUN. I know Tiffany will play when she gets home from Disney. Heck, I should just GIVE it to her! And where is competetive Amy A?

Don't make me switch it to tough bible questions...then we'll have Doug down there getting a facial! Ha!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

New Contest!

Well, it's Christmas time again at the old Clunn Clan!
Our new contest: Whoever is the first that can list the names of each movie IN ORDER that the following lines were taken from (in the comment section) wins a FREE FACIAL from Donna Lee, Esthetician of Healthy Alternatives in Downtown Mount Dora.

1. "Nine Lives, Baby."

2. "What do you mean you don't eat meat? That's ok, I'll make lamb."

3. "Who ARE you?" "No one of consequence"

4. "You ain't never had a friend like me."

5. "You killed my Father."

6. "When are you coming Cherie?"

7. "You might break your royal neck and then where would we be?"

8. "That's not a knife, THAT'S a knife!"

9. "I'm smart; you're dumb. I'm big; you're small. I'm right, you're wrong. And there's nothing you can do about it."

10."Can I borrow your underpants for ten minutes?"

11. "I'm not bad, I'm just drawn that way."

12. "There's no crying in baseball!"

13. "Carpe diem. Seize the day, boys. Make your lives extraordinary."


Movie titles must be in order 1-13. First to get all 13 correct, wins.

SGO!

Well, church was really Great! But for different reasons than I expected.

To tell the truth, I may have built it up as my ONE BIG CHANCE just a taaaad much. Lol

ME expecting an ephiphany = me getting the Lord's response: "Stephanie, If you were more consistent in studying on your own, you wouldn't BE this hungry."
I mean, I don't know why He speaks to me in this way. He knows how to get DIRECTLY to the point with me.
Sigh.

(in whiney tone) But DAAAAD, I want someone to do it forrrr meeeeeee.

And it is true, and I KNOW it. Heck, I JUST posted about spiritual meat coming from your personal walk...I guess my manna just ran out. Actually since manna only lasts for a day, I was likely running on manna FUMES. Time to eat. If you know what I mean.

So while I enjoyed the music and the sermon and the people and the ambience, man- does that place have some serious ambience! Heck you could put white linen tables in and put on some jazz and have quite the sexy little club...is that irreverent? I don't mean it to be...it just has great colors (my faves) and great lighting...and it smells good.

But I digress, my POINT is that I was too hungry and God wasn't going to let me put it all on one church service...(not to say the service wasn't great because it was! And I am NOT just saying that. You know I just don't SAY things if I don't MEAN them.) But He wants ME to come to HIM regularly and I KNOW it. Man, time alone in the Word is like nothing else! If He had let me put it all on one service, I imagine it would have been running the risk of a few serious misguided ideas on my part.

You know, when you are REALLY REALLY hungry for God, you are only fed by time alone in His Word.

Ouch. I am stepping on my own toes here...Ok, let's talk SERMON!

The sermon was GREAT though and it is some kind of humorous irony that we spoke of my favorite biblical person, John the Baptist. Well, after CC's teaching on Paul, I may have to take that back but anyway, you get my point.

John the Baptist is one of those no holes barred type, speakers of truth that I love. DEFINITELY the paint it red type. I love his abandon toward the Lord. There is no tentativeness, no worry of earthly things...(crunchy and sweet, lol) but just a single, determined eye on the goal. Imagine. No house, no home, no spouse. No food, no clothes, no money. Just a single, determined purpose. Mind blowing.

I also loved the personal application of setting straight our paths. Yeah, if I straightened up my personal walk I would be feeling a lot less hungry.

Thanks for church everyone. See you next week. A little less hungry, a little more straightened up and out a bit and ready for action.

Lord, please help me make straight my path that leads daily, moment by moment, directly...to...YOU.

A few of My favortie things..

Taken from Tif's blog...of course I cannot just LIST them, I have to EXPLAIN THEM.

Favorite things:

A great cup of Joe...perking as we speak
and of course, all the derivatives thereof, except icecream. I do not like coffee icecream.

Great Church. Really, this is truly one of my favorite things. I believe your spiritual meat should come from the family alter. So in this day and age, you should pretty quickly surpass the teaching of the average church. So when you find one that still feeds you, well....I can't HELP but feel great about that. I had not been fed in a church for years before I found CC...AND I was told that eventually you should just become a servant in the church after so many years...but I tell you, with the way Calvary teaches, it feels like I hit the proverbial expository jackpot. Lol
Who just wants to go through RITUAL? Ugh! Gimme da' good stuff!

Lobster by twos and I mean to SAY. I LOVE lobster.

Creme Brulee. (I don't know how to make those little accents on my computer)
And if I am going to have Creme Brulee then I want TWO.

Kate YELLING out the window as they pull away at the top of her lungs, "I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Lying in my husbands arms. Look, I don't want to get into TMI here but let me just tell you about my husband. If I just get too CLOSE to him in proximity, my body lights up. He likes this. Lol There is NOTHING about my husband that I do not adore.

The different personalities of my kids in a nutshell. I love that they each have their own thing about them that I am crazy about.

Writing. Yep, surprise surprise, I love to write.

Motivating others with excitement. I get So excited for other people...to see them get excited in turn is a favorite thing.

Little tiny BABIES. Preferably mine.

Well behaved children.

Misbehaving children are also a favorite as long as they have a good heart. You KNOW what I mean. You can just SEE the mean in some kids. There was this little black kid in Sloan's Kindergarten class named Deon. He was short, skinny and had the vocabulary of 30 year old. He would fight, spit, swear, and disobey EVERYONE. But if you were walking down the hall, he'd hold your hand and he'd hug you. When the class found out how fast he could run, he became the star and he would run everywhere FAST just to get attention. Then we found out he had 11 brothers and sisters and one time his Mom was there at school for something and his Dad came in and started calling her "Bitc*" and all that and I saw Deon's heart fall. I pray the Lord takes that kid all the way. So many times, misbehaving kids can grab hold of my heart.

I guess that means kids in general make the list!

Pictures...ah, a good picture is like GOLD to me!

Laughing. Make me laugh, I mean REALLY laugh, and I'm yours.

Dry, sarcastic humor.

Bantering.

Clever humor.


Love. Love. Love!! I LOVE love...

Not being able to hold a grudge.


A clean house.


Progress of all kinds. But not the civilization type progress. More like the "I cleaned my drawers out" progress.

Pastors of all shapes and sizes. Have you guys ever wondered what it was REALLY like to be a pastor??? Staying tight with God ALL THE TIME (or trying to) being watched ALL THE TIME, judged on behavior, decision making. KNOWING in your heart that you have this awesome responsibility...trying to fill needs of so many...But in the end...there is just something about them...a representative of God's Word who stands without ego is like nothing I have ever seen. Yes, our pastor fits this bill. Thank you for Pastor Doug Lord!

Hmmm, what else...

Great weather, a fun trip, presents, GOOD presents, diet coke, clippies for my hair, a clean van, an intelligent conversation, feeling beautiful (rare these days) books, secure people, take action type people, and little tiny furry fluffy kittens...with bricks tied to their tails.Just kidding, just kidding...I had to throw that in there for shock value!

What are some of YOUR favorite things?

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Well that's weird!

I went out to get dinner just now. I usually do not eat but once a day when the family is gone. I just work straight on through until it is done. Weird.

But with my freak sleep last night I have been dragging all day and realize I may just have to go to bed early though that will be a death wish as I'd wake up in 2-3 hours and be up again all night. Weird.

Anyway, I go out (to spend LESS than 6 bucks at the local drive through) Those of us with multiples knows how weird that is!

So I go out and it is a BEAUTIFUL night. I mean one of those really great nights. A little balmy, a little sultry, GREAT date night...not too hot, good for a stroll with your honey OR my thought- the park with the kids! But I don't have any children! Weird.

Jeff called and was walking the baby in the stroller and asked if I wanted to speak to her but I couldn't. I knew it would make me cry. Not so weird. Anyone who knows me at all knows anything can make me cry. I can see myself crying in church tomorrow likely out of sheer relief of hearing God's Word again....or singing in the Sanctuary. But anything can make cry. M showing up on my doorstep. Your kids in a play. Cheesy endings that I'd rather throw up then cry at. Weird.

ANd now finally, when I should be thinking BED...I am feeling better and thinking about working again. I can't wait for tomorrow to come.Do you ever feel that way? Just WAITING for the next day to come so this day can be over. This was one of those days. Weird.

I am not one of those mothers that needs a break. From my kids I mean. Nope, I'm just not. I enjoy my kids all the time. I don't know why this is though I imagine it is because I have trained them not to make me crazy. So they don't. Usually. Lol
But I don't need a break. Weird.

I'm out of things to say....say it with me now....WEIRD!

Get on your Mark, Get Set, SGO!!!!!!!!!!

I JUST realized I was going to be able to go to church ALONE.

Do you know what that means?????????

First, that I am sanctuary bound for the first time and second-

tomorrow there's gonna be a whole lotta SGOIN' goin' on!

(sgo: sunday's goings on)

See you THERE!

Stream of Thought

I hear absolutely nothing but my typing keys.

Ok, and birds chirping, the little nasties.

Ok, AND the hum of the computer tower.
But that's it.
Mostly.

I think I have my days and nights turned around. Or they're turning around. I need to turn them back around.

I sleep until 12 get up until..well, this morning 6:20 back to bed for a few and then up.

If I start needing adult diapers I imagine the metamorphosis will be complete.

There is much weirdness going on right now in so many areas of life. Work, blogs, board, emails, family. I was going to say I think I'll isolate for awhile but then thought: What would Jesus do?

Nah, a little conflict won't kill anyone. Let's just forgive if need be and MOVE on. Shake it off.

Like Paul.

On Malta.

I love that.

The enemy wants IN people...close your spiritual doors and windows...lest the crack be the portal...

I'm supposed to be working. But I worked all night and I'm tired.

M,are you there?

I like what I do. M is going to help me be accountable to all the OTHER things I am supposed to be doing.

I like accountablility.

Most people don't.

I do.

Likely because I live a very undisciplined life.

Do you still love me?

I love church. I mean I LOVE it. I am IN LOVE with it.

Calvary Chapel Rocks.

The People there Rock.

Amy Anthony rocks.
I love to talk to her she is always SO interesting to talk to.

Marissa Rocks.
She is so beautiful and seemingly peaceful. She will always be my Lake County Sarah Cunningham.

Tiffany. Well, now what can I say about Tiffany. If she could be shrunk down, I'd carry her in my pocket all day long.

Melissa...the elusive one. We never really get to connect outside of church but I find that when I do, her smile can light a room. Her dedication to her kids is refreshing and I feel for her when she misses NZ.

Lisa Teel? Shoud ANYONE be allowed to be that beautiful and that skinny at the SAME time???? I ask you!

AnnMarie H..yep, you are one of us whether you LIKE IT or NOT. Funny, witty, gorgeous, obsessed, deeper than her smile...my kinda girl. I don't want to be in her way if she gets mad and she can CRACK me up with three words. And she KNOWs what they are. I swear, if I had the you know whatties, I'd wear that T-shirt. Ok, I wouldn't but in my secret life of complete immorality I would. Haha. Doesn't just EVERYONE wonder now. (" ") Man, that is TOOOOO funny. If she would stop saying how wonderful SUE SUE SUE is...she would be my best friend. Ha.

I predict hope pray want Leisa to join us. I swear, poor Doug is going to really think I am recruiting brethren from other churches but I am NOT!!!!!! Well, not purposely anyway...I just feel like she'd LOVE it. Come on dowwwwwnnnnn, you're the next contestant on Calvary Chapel of the Lakes! NO pressure. Really.

There is PLENTY of kids programming there you know....

Hey, maybe we should start a DAYCARE there and make money off the little guys and dolls. Just sayin'.
Okay I am obviously off on a weird tangent so I'm out!

If I missed anyone, sorry. Please submit your name for subsequent encouragement.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

September 11th


Having lived in Manhattan for many years....
Sept.11th holds special meaning to me.

If you had never been IN one of those buildings, there is no way to explain it.

Their size was like nothing you have ever seen.

They were like mini cities.

I was in an attorney's office when it came on the news and on my way to my office. (I was a practicing massage therapist at the time)

I made it half way through the massage and was listening to the radio and all the following events that were taking place.

I left the massage and went to pick up Sloan at school.

I was in shock for a year, as was the rest of the nation.

Today, I remember.

God Bless America and New York City especially this day.

Tradition!

I inherited my Mom's love for musicals! Here are some of my faves!

I am totally gone for another week or two as I finish the best issue EVER...

I cannot WAIT 'til you all see it..

so... Goodnight!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Musical Faves

I am in deadline...and I had a few hours of remembering today that there is a better life! I talked to DEAR M! M, I miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I leave you dear brethren, with an INKLING (and I mean INKLING) of the great musicals of all time...and these aren't even all of my favorites!

Enjoy...Tradtion!! and many others...

Matchmaker!

Edelweiss.......

It's the Hard knocked Life!

And that Ryhmes with pool!

I'm Reviewing the Situation..

Do you love me?

The Difference Between a Bulldog and a Reformed Homeschooling Mom

Lately, I got faced with a person for their ridiculously obvious lack of proper perspective, (don't worry, no one you know) in other words, they've got the "crazies", I remember something my old pastor used to say that Rick Warren taught in a "Purpose Driven Life". Some people are EGR's...(Extra Grace Requireds) They need EXTRA grace because well, truth be told, they've got the crazies! I am finally beginning to ACCEPT that I will stand alone in life on many issues. (Really? Are you just now seeing that Steph?) And that is what is going to make ME special. I will never be "one of the group", I will never be "like everybody else" I will never "fit in"...nor I come to realize, do I really want to. I will always be more finely judged, more persecuted for my beliefs, right or wrong, but let's face it, (generally) right, lol, and more disliked than any of my fun, warm I'll-do-anything-for-you, I-don't-want-to-deal-with-confrontation-counterparts. No, I have NO problem speaking God's Truth. I do have more hold-back when speaking an opinion..we should all watch our opinions, yes?...I guess the question comes when someone questions is it God's Truth? or my opinion? I get that. I'm not an idiot. I get that I may believe it is God's Truth, you may believe is an opinion. I won't say what I can't back up though, I promise.

But guess what???

I am now EMBRACING IT! So THERE. I will be forty very, very soon and You will NOT find me hem-hawin' around about what is right, good and true. I'm not saying you have to believe it or agree...but I am not accepting anyone's ridiculous efforts at shooting me down with watered down efforts for what IS serious application of God's Word to life. Nope. Do me a favor, if you do not want to hear it, don't ask me and whatever you do, DON'T read my blog. lol I suffer along with sin, mistakes, worry, insecurity, JUST like everybody else but I find it hilariously funny that even in my SILENCE, I get the "look", the "raised eyebrow" or even a comment...when I have SAID NOTHING. So if that is how it is going to go down, then I am going to have go ahead and say it. Yep, that's right. That is WHAT I SAID. or WHAT I THINK. or HOW I FEEL.

I recently got misunderstood about something and I realized wow, whacko,(is that judging? whoops) you have NO IDEA what you are talking about because you don't KNOW me....(EGR, EGR) but then someone REALLY REALLY smarter than I, told me yesterday that God gives wisdom when asked. (duh) and I have been praying that for quite a few years now, praying those scriptures on wisdom in regards to parenting, and in the moment I read those words of affirmation from him, I realized if I have been praying for wisdom for this long in my parenting, and making my choices, and seeing the fruit, WHY would I question it now that the going is a little tough???
(so thank you for that by the way)
Not two seconds later did more confrontation happen and now I am thinking yes, wisdom...if you really want it, it may take you to some solitary places. So Embrace it!

What is the difference between a bulldog and a reformed homeschooling Mom?

Coffee and a whole lotta scripture!

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Lurkers no more?

My blog is closed so I don't need this but if yours is not and you want to be able to see who's visiting..or at least what town they're in...then here ya' go.

http://feedjit.com/

Friday, September 5, 2008

Ah..Blessed Blogging Home.

Yeah, I know you all knew I'd bring it here. WHAT OF IT? I am happy to bring this discussion here. Heehee Come on in!!!! (you DID bring me coffee right???)

29 comments not likely but I DO know that most of you know me a bit better than a comment might read to a stranger.
That part does make me sad because people are SO freaky about the woman/bible thing that if they do not KNOW me than they could not read my comments from a true perspective. I tried very hard to come across loving which I am..but still it is hard to do when someone does not KNOW you!
Ya'll feel free to say anything you want here without holding back.

I will say these things:

In no way did I mean NOR did I say or even allude to the statement made that just because you have a child out of wedlock then you have BAD parents. Having GREAT parents does not mean you are properly parented.


Anyone who read my initial comments knows I said that they were better than the alternative so that should be a balm to whoever cannot stand the fact that I don't think a woman belongs there.

Help me see the other side...a woman has 5 kids, one with special needs and one who is pregnant...that doesn't strike anyone as uh, INSANE to try to take on being VP of the USA? What---is it just too good of an opportunity to pass up?

The only idea I thought ridiculous is the idea that we can compare Dad the same as Mom in the VP position. Mom's POSITION and ROLE (after God) is to her husband and family FIRST. Can she be VP and fulfill her first calling? Comparing a male President's interaction with their children against a female's just doesn't work. One is called to be her husband's Helpmeet and one is called to lead. It is clear. We do not negate the importance of Dad by rightly defining roles...otherwise, WHO will be president? Are we saying it is of equal detriment to the family if one or the other takes a leadership position? Man, I hope not.

Also- we all are "good parents" right? But there are varying degrees of effective parenting. Which is why I PROFOUNDLY continue to refuse to teach a parenting class. We all do it differently but the difference is whether someone is ready to do the TOUGH stuff when they need to. Everyone's lines on what is acceptable varies. Some don't mind if junior mouths off, some do. Some don't mind if their daughter wears a skirt that barely covers their butts, some do. On and on it goes. I cannot teach the class because of those lines. When my line is different from someone else's then I am considered JUDGEMENTAL! I am a believer in parental authority! So I cannot teach on it. Women get CRAZY about their kids. I know I do! Those the really know me know we are in LOVE with our kids but more importantly that they are in LOVE with us. NONE of the cliches apply in our family. (teenage years, terrible twos, it's a stage, it's gender related, etc.)

I am NO JUDGE. I am ridiculously worse than ALL of you. I am not just saying that either, I feel I actually I am! BUT--- I am CRYSTAL clear on parenting. Still willing to learn, to listen, and to change but very clear that parenting is a lot more involved than we ever thought.

Teen pregnancy could all but be eliminated if we all followed and taught the biblical model of courtship. All the way to the HEART though...not just a you can- you can't thing.

Having "favorite" people as parents of a child with a child out of wedlock...huh? This has nothing to do with how great people are. People are great. I love people, and honestly the dysfunctional ones are often more likable! Lol (more real and vulnerable)
I myself transitioned hard from a really worldly upbringing and still struggle with it. I think that parenting just really took me to new heights. You cannot play at parenting. There is absolutely nothing worse to me than to see good Christian people raise hellions for children. HOW does that happen? I can tell you, but then you'd WANT to kill me. ;)
But not even hellions. One cannot write off a teen pg as a "fluke". One must ask "Where did I go wrong?" I get that it is not popular by today's standard of "I did the best I could"...but the Truth stands alone even when it is not joined by others.
There is SO MUCH MORE out there for parents. It is right in the bible and available to anyone who wants to hear and then be DOERS of the Word!
These are not my thoughts! These are not my ideas! These are not gray areas! I am not making this up.

These are not my personal beliefs (I mean they are but I did not make them up)


Someone wrote that "In addition to biblical beliefs, it is proven over and over that the influence of a father on the behavior of a daughter is critical."

Danger Will Robinson. Do not add to God's Word. Yet I DO believe that Dad's role is vital in daughter's life. But the roles in this family are reversed. Daughter does not know Dad as strong leader but MOM instead. Dad has become Mom and Mom has become Dad. I know, I know, you think me archaic...but SHE is the head and somehow, some way, something got missed that let this poor child think that sex outside of marriage was ok. Responsibility of the act lies with the daughter but the accomplices are the parents.

And lest you think I am anti-Palin, think again. She is my kinda girl! (Babies Guns and Jesus??? I would carry that bumper sticker any day)

But you just go right ahead and tell me how that Mom could POSSIBLY spend enough time with her family as Vice Pres? With an INFANT????

Of course we don't recall questioning men in leadership...men are SUPPOSED to be in leadership. Sheesh. Get over it ladies. It does not LESSEN you to have them lead. It empowers you with God's blessing you for the honoring of His truth.

Another said: "It is not true that a teenage pregnancy is an indication of poor parenting. When our children are out of our sight, they will make decisions on their own."

Uh... guess what? It is certainly an indication of that! If our children are not making right choices when they are on their own then we can be SURE that:

1) It is too soon for them to be out unsupervised

or

2) We have missed an important teaching to our children.

Sorry folks. But it is true.

It is true that it is not up to us to decide how they raise their family but it IS up to us on how they rule the country. And biblically speaking, those who are considering others for leadership positions are told to look to their families for indication. This is basic biblical teaching people. Let alone that it is referring to men NOT women.

I am the BIGGEST woman lover around. The biblical woman is a force to be reckoned with. But if she is willing to walk away from husband and kids for a career, then you can bet there is a serious role identity problem. YES, she is walking away. If you have any idea how their schedules are run (minute by minute, literally) then you know.

Of course it would stand to reason that she intrigues us. She is gorgeous, has multiple children, and is a gun totin', sling wearing powerhouse. I am familiar with those types of women. Heck, she outshines her running mate: the potential PRESIDENT.
But one must always ask, just because I CAN, does it mean I SHOULD?

If they win, I pray she will serve this country well. But make no mistake, if she does, it will be at the FURTHER sacrifice of her family.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

But in the end it all comes back to...JESUS

But AM!!! What about this one!??!!!

OK, I admit it...

I may be on a memory lane thing...(Cat Stevens) but I forgot how much GOOD music was out here!!
THANK YOU for amazing music!!! The funny thing is that i like PRAISE and WORSHIP!!!

But this is a pretty darn close second!

I'm OFTEN in a New York state of mind!!

My FAVORITE song of all time!!

I had to play it in the movie clip (sorry) because NO ONE sings it like The Commitments...not even OTIS! I MEAN!!! Sooooo good!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

WELCOME HOME LEISA!

Can I just say that I MISSED you???? You were gone wayyyyy too long!

Shout out to Leisa guys!

Now we just have to get her on over to Calvary....heh, heh...it's all part of the master plan...;)

Monday, September 1, 2008

Labor Day

I had my tubal ligation reversal on labor day in September 05.

We got my tubes tied when I was still in the hospital with Lauren. Three kids. Tie tubes. No brainer, right?

A few years later and I get the little gnawing feeling. The inkling that I had done something terribly terribly wrong.

I had altered what God had created. Without permission.

Now, you may have your own thoughts on that. They may be true or they may be ridiculous , but here is my story.

I will never again be convinced that altering what God has created to not function as it was intended to will be the right action to take.

And so began the mourning of my fertility.
It was certainly like mourning the death of a well loved family member.
Except this was like mourning the deaths of many unborn family members.
Because that is what we had done. Cut off potential life.

I can remember looking back and asking HOW DID WE NOT PRAY ABOUT THIS?
That is really scary. And also why I never blamed anyone for it but myself.

I was TOTALLY sure at that moment that I would never want another child.
I can REMEMBER feeling sure. Remember feeling relieved.
What I can't remember was feeling deceived.
But I was.
Because it is not about what YOU want but it is about what GOD wants. In that moment I had done what I wanted instead of waiting on God to let me know what HE wanted.

And he let me know. In spades.

By the time I found Dr.Berger: http://www.tubal-reversal.net/
I was GUNG HO.

But my husband was just beginning his journey and it took another year to bring him around. Lol

What a great experience that surgery was. I told myself over and over that no matter what happened, that we were correcting a mistake that we had made and that was enough. That had to be enough.

But you know, I WANTED another baby. In the worst way. The way I imagine only a barren woman wants a baby.

We were instructed to skip my first cycle after the surgery which was HARD TO DO but we did.

And the next month?

You got it. Positive HPT. (that stands for home pregnancy test people) I learned a LOT of abbreviations through these months the funniest of which is CM. Once I was at the park with some homeschoolers and listening to them talk about "CM" and went running up thinking we were having a fertility conversation but they were really talking about CHARLOTTE MASON!!! Bwah ha ha I won't fill you in on what CM means in the fertility world for reasons of propriety)

Anyway, Kate was on the way and I had never been happier.

Add a move to Eustis to top it all off and two years and 3 miscarriages later, we have one happy, thankful Mom who knows that fertility is a gift not to be squandered.
There are yet ever present desires for more children and one day, who knows? But I am ever grateful that Kate was gifted to me. And really, I KNOW she was a gift. A 'gimme", as it were. I certainly didn't deserve her and missed many an opportunity for children during the "lost years" but God in his goodness, chose not to let me insanely go through the trials of infertility after my body was restored. So I can only be very very thankful, not just for Kate but for the wonderful lessons learned that I can now pass on to my own dear daughters.

Kate: The daughter that almost wasn't.

Sloan 9 lbs 14 oz natural
Rachel 10 lbs 12 oz natural with shoulder distosia. That was fun.
Lauren 8 lbs something. Can't remember. BLESSED epidural.
Kate can't remember weight at all, lol, no epi though I wanted one...great midwife.

and lastly.....Jeff Jr? Please Lord? Just-one-more....
Happy Labor Day!
(alright, and a shout out to the labor unions too I guess.)

Lord, to whom shall we go?

Funny, I spent all morning yesterday looking for my never-missing Bible for church (which I didn't need it for anyway since I am just dealing with Kate) but could not find it.

But this morning, when I need to do my morning bible study and have the time to do so as Katy-Did sleeps, I walk directly into my old friend. As if He knows that this was our intended meeting time all along....

John 6:65-69
65 He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled them." 66 From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him. 67 "You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve. 68 Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69 We have come to believe and to know that you are the Holy One of God."

Lord, I come to You, and my heart is comforted already, just in coming.
Lord,
my savior,
the Lord of my life, who knows, who understands, and plans all for good,
the One who has all the power I need for this hour.
I come,
so needy,
in my weakness and all my inability,
with burdens pressing on my heart,
when my tongue cannot frame the words or utter
my deep longings,
with tears of sorrow for my wretched failures, and
needing your forgiveness.
To YOU,
in trust, claiming Your promises,
in confidence, acknowledging that You know what
You are doing in my life,
for comfort in the cares that fret and wear,
for strength to plod on faithfully and know this too shall pass.
Lord, I come to You, with gratitude that You are there.

Yum Yum

It was good to spend the weekend cooking and doing home stuff. WOW. Who knew the peace that came with prioritizing! Had to look up the word "triage" since everyone was using it and I cannot get the image of bandaged soldiers under tents or certain E.R. episodes out of my head when that word is used, lol, so here is what Merriam-Webster online has to say about it:

Triage: the assigning of priority order to projects on the basis of where funds and other resources can be best used, are most needed, or are most likely to achieve success

So as I begin to triage my LIFE...(wow how appropriate is that?) I see that it works, at least in terms of peace! Thank you Lord!


Marinated steak with mushrooms sauteed in butter and garlic, twice baked potatoes, fresh crunchy salad, crusty hot bread= four happy kids and one jealous out-of-town husband!