Stream of Thought

The hubs made me pancakes and eggs for breakfast. It was delicious.

The news media has me so sick I can barely stand it. There is NO news media that is not openly biased. Whole stories are spun one way or the other. Fox and ABC, CNN adn NBC...I remember being idealistic about the media and being taught that it was a huge responsiblilty reporting the news..and how it should be "just the facts maam" with no spin. Jaded am I and fiercely worn from the ugliness of the world.

Kate is hilarious and completely secure in her life. I like to see her strut her little stuff around as if she owns the world. And she does...for now. Every kid should feel this secure in their homes.

We're headed back to Eustis here in a few and I am glad, I guess. I'm tired and have been dreaming the strangest of dreams. I have always dreamt vividly and strangely and always remembered them well. I feel these recent ones are really trying to tell me something though and I am going to listen as best I can. I know I sound like a whack, but there it is.

I found the most AWESOME math curriculum anywhere and no one will listen to me. Lol
It is touted by every respected homeschooler around from Duffy to...whoever and a real look at it would likely change anyone's mind on math. It is amazing.

Nov issue is at print and if it prints PROPERLY this time, it really will be our BEST ISSUE EVER. No...REALLY. You will be SO proud at how NON BIASED the election piece for kids is. But look closely at the kids answers to the "If I were president" question...you can see their parents answers in a lot of them, lol.

That clay piece that Rachel made is completely from her own head. It is supposed to be representative of that fish in Finding Nemo with the light thingy hanging down. She made it in clay class where they choose their own subject. She was a star and in the shadow of big sis a lot of the time, I really am glad she found a place where she gets to shine alone. She is really an amazing artist and I am proud of her.

We're taking Kate off sugar...again. Lol She had 4 cookies yesterday and icecream and I have visions of her getting diabetes so it is cold turkey for her for a while and then practiced moderation.

Can one be tired of surrendering? Why cannot one simply stay in a mode of surrender? Yet again I find myself needing to simply give up, daily as I am drowning in a world of what if's, what if's what if's. This morning on my surrender list, my entire life made the list, my: walk, kids, school, magazine, house, time, sins, LIFE.

Sometimes it seems like the only thing that is consistently great in my life is my husband. So I am REALLY REALLY thankful for that. Even if he doesn't read my blog or share my penchant for Law and Order.

I am looking forward to Christmas and miss Crystal so much, I wish she would move here. We are likely not going to be able to go to TN after all this year.

My Dad AND my Mom are now very ill and refuse much help and won't disclose anything. We found my Dad laying on his couch yesterday with no evidence that he had been eating. His door was wide open and he never even stood up once. I am not even sure he COULD stand up but was completely coherent and cognizant and 100% his difficult self so all we could do was go to the grocery store for him (that's the most he's ever really let us do) and stock up on what he wanted and then he shooed us out.


I realize that I am a completely different person now than I was when I first left Vero. Definitely better but definitely older. I never felt old before and while 40 is certainly NOT old, life's circumstances can certainly make you feel that way.

I am ever relating to the scriptures about aspiring to live a quiet life the other one about putting away childish things...

I guess I could stream endlessly here so I'll sign off for now.

See you all soon.

Well, likely that is not true but I will be in your vicinity soon anyway.