Who loves you baby?

Kate is so amazing. She is verbal for her age I think, but how can one blame her with 3 verbal sisters and Mom around all the time? She has recently taken to calling Rachel's name loudly with a weh AH you...afterwards. "Rachuuul, whe AH youuu". Guess how that makes Rach feel?
She also says Byb-bye... wuv you...
(ahhh, first sip of Joe this morning, soooo good)
I am glad she is going to be able to speak so young and therefor skip a lot of the frustration of not being able to ask for what she wants or needs. She can mostly say what she wants now: juice, baby, food (nummy-num), diaper change, book or the ever-resounding MIMI (me) Lol. Her newest thing is counting though. She is wondering what the heck we are doing and is totally entranced by it. I have little book stashes throughout the house for her and she knows her counting books. One clown, two dollies, three toy soldiers. She watches so intently and then when I count them "one, two, three," her head whips around and she stares at me...She knows we are doing something, something important, but she is figuring out what. It is AMAZING to watch her little brain work it out. So she has started to mimic count. "One", she says holding her little number one finger up. "One, two, nine!" says she. Who cares about 3,4,5,6,7 or 8? She likes one, two and NINE. Ugh, I could EAT HER.

Ok, so I know that she is my tubal-reversal baby so I am feeling extra um, ga-ga ding-ding in love with her. I know she is just a baby like every other baby but I am telling you, I am completely, head over heels, 150%,crazy in love with her! I know, I know, a tad pathetic at number four. But I really cannot help it. Maybe it is because I am the age I am now or that I get to be with her all the time and not work or have to send her to daycare somewhere...I don't know but it is a real love fest.

Last night I was nursing her in her room before bed and I was stroking her head, legs, tummy and she was stroking my chest, arms, face and we were just cooing at each other and I didn't actually think life could be any sweeter in that moment. I am IN LOVE with my child. Now, don't make me qualify, I am in love with the others too...anyone who knows me, knows that, but I am allowed to talk about just one at this moment, am I not?

I think somehow I transcended old patterning, broke a chain or something that I wasn't even aware I had and came to the sudden realization that giving oneself over completely to love is a transcendant JOY. Now, I know that I am enjoying the fruit of some years of labor. It is a pleasure to talk with each of my kids, spend time, do things with because they are well trained. I know that is a big part of it for me because I have little patience and probably would feel less, well, gushy about wild banshees (as little L calls herself) but so what? If I am enjoying my kids more because they are well-trained children, what of it?

My brain was going round and round this last night as I lay in bed. If I could truly express how I felt, and you multiplied it by infiniti, you still wouldn't be able to know what love I am feeling. So then I thought, how much more does our heavenly Father love us? It is impossible to fathom. He loves us so much that He sacrificed himself. Hmmm, sounds like a parent to me. If anything can even remotely taste of the love that God has for His children, it must be a mother's love...

My point? I have no idea. I just needed to somehow, in some way try to express this love I have for that kid. The baby that was never to be. (or so I thought) I wish everyone could just run right out and get tubal reversals and have babies all over the place.
Lol Ok, ok, at least ME.
Send us up some prayers (for real)for next month ladies, might as well throw one of them thar boys into the mix as you all are always wishing on me. ;)
Thanks for letting me gush about the baby. I know everyone feels the same way about their own kids. I'm not STUPID you know...lol, just a MOM. :0)