Stream of Thought

Hello there brethren.

Jeff took ALL the girls to Vero since I have to have LFM done by Monday. It is slooooooooooow going. I had to take a break as I have been at it since about well, you do NOT want to know. The stupid production schedule got moved up so we went into emergency mode and they are gone and I have to miss church and it was my time to serve so that is let down to others PLUS I have to WORK.

For those of you who don't have to work, APPRECIATE it. APPRECIATE your husbands that do work hard. I think the majority of us take it for granted. I have always appreciated how hard Jeff has worked and thought he worked harder than many and now we both work harder than I ever thought possible even! That's what we get for thinking we were in early retirement!!! LOL We both talked about how great it would be when I got back to just SERVING the family. And boy, I was pretty good at it then but just WAIT baby.

Deb came by with coffee (THANKS DEB) but really it was just a ploy to see her little triplets. I sucked down that Joe in 3 secs flat. Did you notice that Deb? Maybe I'll rate a LARGE next time. ;)

It is weird being in the house alone. I am so NOT alone most of the time. Right now, I am completely alone. But NOT lonely.

Sloan and I have been (GASP) TEXTING back and forth. We are not a texting family so it takes like 30 minutes for me to write: luv u. I am getting faster though.
I have her so indoctrinated to my cultish ways of no ridiculous techno-culture that it seems a little taboo to us both I think. But harmless since I know she won't be racking up 14,000 texts this month.

It's kind of the fun thing about having the kids that we do. All the "bad" stuff that they get never gets used in a "bad" way. It's quite funny.
Rachel has veggie tales on her ipod and Sloan has Doug's sermons.

I went for a pedicure today for my break and got thinking as she hurt me a time or two that pedis should not HURT! Then she massaged me and put hot towels on me and I thought of an analogy that it is kinda like God's Word. You don't want it to HURT. But sometimes it does...but mostly it is gentle and feels good...but sometimes a little something needs a little clip here or a clip there and there is pain but then you are left better than before. Pretty good huh? Trust me, the way I had it in my head was much more graphic but I am working on the kinder, gentler me.

Being alone always gets me "jonesing" for my NY life. How WEIRD is that? I have not had duck pate since I left NYC!!!! (I know the accent goes on pate but have NEVER been able to find out how to do it) BTW- it is pronouced patay, but you know that. Anyway, appetizers and fine champagne don't seem to be on the menu for me anymore. I know that sounds ridiculous but you would have to have lived it to truly understand what a fine pate tastes like...or the best steak your lips ever touched...or coffee and the NY Times without a call for Mom interrupting, or a long retreat with some serious teaching...it is amazing. Isn't it AMAZING about 'triggers'? That just my being alone reminds me of that?

But boy, do I miss my kids. Typical Mom. Just like Misty. (see cat post below) Get a kid, throw the rest of the good life straight out the window.

Have you seen that new Pledge product?? It cleans EVERYTHING! Stainless steel, wood, counters, glass???? I cannot wait to try it.

My highly dysfunctional Mom took Sloan grocery shopping at Sam's to the tune of $400.00. She is going to send home with them likely every food we do not eat and lots that we do. This is how she has always showed affection or made up for something she did wrong. This is the first time she has seen the kids since we decided it was healthier to not be a part of her life right now. (about 3-4 months) and her taking them to dinner and shopping has reminded me of years past and made me feel extremely sorry for her. But still not enough to engage in further dysfunction.


I'm hungry. But I have to go back to work.


See ya.