Church Day

I remember when I used to always say Sunday's a comin'! I imagine that old feeling will return when Kate can sit quietly and I can really listen. Because listen you must at a Calvary Chapel. Teaching verse by verse is such a thorough and dare I say proper? way to teach. But you need to listen so for now I am really just training and straining. Lol Training Kate which is OH SO worth it in the end and Straining to hear the fullness of the teaching.
Someone out there is thinking CD I know. I know, I know!

I wonder if that teaching is scary to others. I mean, for me it is like HOO-YAH Grand Master Sargeant! Soooo what I like. Which is why I am there of course. But to hear: We teach the bible verse by verse to someone who has rarely cracked open the bible...well, I guess that could be a little daunting. Yay bible tabs!

Does anyone remember when they thought the Bible was boring? Honestly now, I do not know how some of us (especially me) became Christian. Take a look at some of our pasts and you will be one step closer to believing in election.

I remember when I was saved. The very day. I was seven. I was in my room in Ct. I must have heard something at church. My parents used to take me and drop me off and pick me up ALONE. So God obviously had a plan for me because I always wanted to go. They STILL don't go so there ya' go with God's plan again....Anyway, I ardently prayed for the Lord to come into my heart and save me. And He has been actively pursuing me ever since. Did I say actively? I mean RELENTLESSLY. Man, I truly hope he remembers my sin no more so I can just fall at his feet and rest one day.

I must have heard the phrase "prayer closet" when I was that young because I had this cabinet like closet that you had to step into...over a short wooden front. In other words, the doors didn't come down to the floor so it was a great little hiding spot. It had a little shelf on one end and since I needed a "prayer closet" I figured that would do just fine! I used to light CANDLES in there and keep a little bowl of candies and try to read the bible alone when I was seven. (head shaking) I should have burnt the whole house down. WHERE were my parents when I was doing all this???? But the enemy had his eye on me and knowing he could not have my spirit, I imagine he knew he could rough me up pretty good. And he did. It is the only thing the enemy can do do a Christian; make them less effective. But I can see God's hand MIGHTILY all through those years and Christians, Christianity and God's presence were always there in one form another. I always knew it. Always felt it. I was constantly being drawn back in.

That is one of the reasons I so strongly believe in once saved always saved. Because I my friends, am living proof. There is of course that old thing called GOD'S WORD that also teaches it. But many poor creatures think you can lose your salvation by being "too bad" or not walking with Christ. ANd it is heretical to teach such a thing. If living a lifestyle of sin causes you to lose your salvation then I guess I am not saved right now! My seven year old confession meant nothing! All those years of seeing God's Hand in my life while I walked amongst the dead were a lie!
No bretheren, even the Christian who is entangled in deadly sin is still going to heaven.

I am feeling old these days...not like me at all and while everyone is so excited about the new church and new ideas and new new new, I still find it hard to get plugged in. I try, but it never really seems to work out. (no commenting on this last line, guys it is not a commentary on anything I am just blogging)
Sometimes I think I get caught up thinking I should be doing "this" or "that" but God has other plans. What I am gifted at is not utilized in the day to day church operation is all I can think and I need to embrace that. It is hard not feeling utilized by God but also I imagine not so pleasant for Him to have to drag me to the job He wants me at as I dig my heels in where I think I should be. I need to bloom where I am planted? I think Amy says that..

So...this Sunday and every day for the rest of my life...I yet again, surrender all.