Kids are away with Jeff so I can create an entire issue by Wednesday. Yep. My new life. Thankfully, we are feeling very clear on what we need to do now so it is just a waiting game. :) We are hoping to keep build it up over the next school year and hope some huge corp comes in and buys it up from us. Can you uh, pray for that please?
I can no longer keep up with all the activities in my life and I am beginning to realize that letting go and letting whatever activities are for this current time just happen. I am going to try to stop doing it all. Actually I am not doing it all. I am going to stop feeling like I have to do it all and then guilty when I don't.
There is a season for everything and this is the season for what I am doing right now. It is weird that it has brought new friends, acquaintances, troubles and joys than what I used to have.
The Higher road has no place in business let me tell you. Not many people care. I spend a lot of time talking to people about what is good right and true. Specifically there are these two groups of people who do not like each other and they fight and scheme and plan. I often feel like I am running around with my hands up yelling Stop! Don't! Wait! in a room full of small toddlers with firearms.
It matters not. They just shoot at random.
Jeff and I are wanting to move again. Get outta here. There is property he is finding so cheap it is not even funny. 7 acres with a nice trailer N of Eustis for
$75K. I kid you not. IN Vero there is a newish 3/2.5 with a 2 car gar. for FIFTY NINE. (over off of 21st Chewhi)
Of course, the North always beckons...TN, KY...Sloan says all the "maidens of worth" type people live in Alabama. Lol Too cute. I do wish I could give her more like minded people. Ones that I could actually tolerate on a regular basis that is.
Maybe I should just give up and smack 'em all into whatever. Rach should go to art school. Sloan should go to tennis school and Lauren truly, truly is a Rennaissance woman. She is teaching herself to play the piano and is going to be better than Sloan. She can climb a 30 foot rock wall without blinking (and did so in downtown Eustis on the 4th and rang the bell!) She can sign, dance, act and cook. WELL.
I can't teach her those things. Someone else has to. If I didn't have kids, this magazine would have been a perfect fit for me. But then I would not have had the life experiences with parenting to write it. But again, it could have been about something else. I think I just mean publishing in general would have been a good fit.
But I do have kids. And mothering is a full time job if done properly. Subsequently you give up your own life for theirs. Sigh. I really am not nearly as miserable as this sounds. Just sayin'. I really NEED to get back to the kids! I think I do anyway.
So...our ties feel so loose these days and Mom is faltering as usual so I go where the Dad wants to go. When the Dad wants to go and how the Dad wants to go.
I just hope we go one way or the other.
4 comments:
First of all...go to sleep woman, it's 4 AM...or at least it was when you posted. Second, you can look at the property north of Eustis, but that's as north as you are allowed to go, LOL. We missed you yesterday! I figured the family must be gone since it looked awfully quiet when we drove by your house.
I hear you on the moving thing. I love it here, but I am the sort who likes being someplace new just about every three years. Greg says no. This is the first time he has ever been really firm about the no when discussing moving. But I was just telling someone I can't see myself being here forever. I don't know why. I can't explain it. I feel like I belong in Asheville, NC. We'll see. You just never know where life is going to take you.
Prayer… You will figure it out and cope somehow.
And the magazine always looks great!
I think that's why I love that cutesy saying "bloom where you're planted." It goes for where you are, what you're doing, everything life seems to bring our way. I'm always a bit wary of feeling settled.
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