Caramel Musty Machiatto Lusty

Okay, I tricked out the title I know. BUT! There is method, I promise.

I am not your 300 llb to 150 llb wannabe success story. I am typical. Unremarkable. Average.

I only have really 50-70 llbs to lose. Nothing undo-able. But as I say, everything is relative. I have always known that my forties would be my best decade. I think I knew that in my teens. Lol I never felt comfortable in my own skin until I was an adult. I was an adult in a kid's body for most of my youth. Forty has just been a-waitin' for me.
But anyway, there is just NO WAY I want to turn 40 this coming September wishing I had more control over my weight. I'd like to say all the right things, like it is for health reasons, etc. But I would really just like to stop buying clothes the next size up. Anyone who knows me knows I am not the vain type. I mean, we are all a little vain...but I can go without makeup, have dirty feet (which is often since I am nearly always barefoot, though I DID just get a pedi and I mean to say!) and my clothes have definitely turned Wal Mart grade. But really, I am getting to the point where I want to really hide and I know that means that it is time. I saw a picture of myself somewhere which shall remain nameless and I really looked, well, big. Everyone I know is not super thin, how come THEY don't look big? But of course I do. And my big round face doesn't help either...

But still, 50 llbs off the old bod might make me flip it again a bit (whatever that means)....so...
I am giving myself 10 llb increments and am going to do it by my birthday.

All this to say that I was reading about how the very first lust was the lust of the tastebuds!! Isn't that the TRUTH! We have become a society where everything has to look and taste OUT OF THIS WORLD or we don't want it...I have been full for two days eating the way I have but even right after I eat I am looking for something to titillate my tastebuds. It's terrible.

But like anything, after a few days, real, raw, fresh, less seasoned food becomes quite tasty. Water gets sweet. And hunger subsides. This new Caramel Machiatto thing we are all on is a good example. I was "scheduling" it into my lifestyle change as my "treat". Because it tasted SO GOOD. And even more so...honestly? It's the best caffeine rush I've had in a long time.

And since every VICE that's any good has been stripped away by unseen forces...Lol it is the only one I can get away with that doesn't break the Christian barrier of acceptance. Except if I know the Lord at all, and I do at least a little bit, he's bound to sneak up on this one too and take it away eventually. That is, if I turn it into something that it shouldn't be. Like a drug so fine I can single handedly operate heavy machinery while quilting, nursing and grinding wheat all at the same time. Sigh. I would have made SUCH a good junkie.
Anyway, I am endeavoring to tame the lust of my tastebuds and turn my passions elsewhere...I imagine someone should benefit from that. ;)